My life is on the upswing!

WAHOO!!!! The prowler is back at my gym!! Woot woot!! I LOVE that thing and I'm so happy it's back. I got to use it yesterday in my workout and it just made me happy. I can't believe people steal that thing. It's crazy. I found out that is the second prowler that was stolen. What's the problem? People have no morals? Oy!

I started out this week with a lot of energy. Of course I hadn't been to work for about 2 weeks and had slept just as much as I wanted to so of course I had energy. One of my goals for 2012 is to get in bed at 10:00pm. I did that on Monday and Tuesday and then I think it was probably 11 on Wednesday and same for Thursday. And last night, forget it! I'm sure it was past 12 midnight!! What a psychotic nut I am! I can't keep doing that. Of course I knew I could sleep in this morning and I did so I did get 8 hours of sleep. But next week I'm going to be better about getting in bed at 10pm.

I've gotten in some good workouts this week and some yoga as well. I'm going for yoga again today. Hopefully I'll be able to get in a little cardio before but that all depends on if I finish my cleaning in time. I think I can do it. We'll see!

I think over the course of last year I learned a lot about myself and life. I've finally come to a peaceful place within myself where my body and weight is concerned. I still don't like getting dressed right now because A LOT of my clothes don't fit. I've bought some new clothes so I have stuff to wear but I don't want to buy a lot of new clothes. The not overthinking food thing is very helpful. I really overthought my food, diet, nutrition, workouts, etc. last year and this year I'm just not doing that. I have cut myself some slack and chalked up my weight gain to post-competition. I'm not letting myself worry about how I will get back to a good mental state with my food. I can't worry about that because it just seems so destructive. So now I'm just taking it one step at a time. I was thinking about "sculpting" my body and then I thought about the Statue of David that I saw in Italy. And after some very quick research I realized that it took Michelangelo three years to complete that sculpture. So I've given myself that same amount of time. I will sculpt my body over the next three years, making minor changes here and there. No sledgehammer for me! No sirree! And if before the three years are over my sculpture is complete, I will have extra time to polish it! Haha!

I really have been enjoying getting back in the kitchen this week. I will continue on that path in the following weeks. I feel better eating better. Knowing that I made my food and that it tastes good is so rewarding. And there are always easier ways to make your food if you're looking for them. Like the pork and chicken I made earlier this week. I put them in the marinade one night. It probably took me about 15-20 minutes total to get them marinating in their bags. Then the next day between work and yoga I threw them in the oven and cooked them, let them sit and then sliced and stored them, cleaned up and off I went. I put some in the fridge and some in the freezer. They freeze well so I always have some yummy protein on hand. Simple and easy. LOVE it!

So I feel better about myself and my life. I think I was verging on some sort of depression at the end of last year. I just felt defeated and it was discomforting. Now I have hope, for lack of a better word. And I feel motivated, comfortable, and happy. This is all good. My life is on an upswing. I feel it. And that's all the motivation I need. So happy to be alive and healthy!